Resolutions

I don’t know how I feel about resolutions at New Year’s.  I usually make my resolutions on my birthday, which I did this year also (in July). But things have been so dynamic since my birthday that I really want to keep the momentum going.

2013 started off in a not so wonderful fashion, I was laid off, in a dead end relationship with a liar who was, apparently, constantly looking for a person who “looked better” on paper than I do, my finances were in a desperate state, and I was unhappy with the direction my life was going.

Then, suddenly, things changed.  It had to be divine intervention.  I got a job working as a nurse again.  I found out I was dating the worst kind of liar in the world, the kind who lies to himself about being a liar.  After that ended, I met someone much more fun and honest…  And hot.  I started making money and venturing out more, doing things out of my comfort zone.  By May, I was liberated from most of the toxic things that had been seemingly holding me back.

I learned to get back on my path and pursue an open heart.  I’ve met amazing people who I love.  Great people have come back into my life, my friendships have strengthened.  I feel like I’m on the brink of joy again.  That’s something that I haven’t felt in a few years now.

So, could it get better?  Absolutely!!!  Why shouldn’t it get better?  How can I start to make it even better?

Well, as much as I like to make fun of girls who are so type A that they never have a hair out of place and their roots are always pristine, I want to be a little more type A as far as organization goes.  I want to get over my fear of no longer being fun if things are perfectly organized.  I’m starting to believe that if things are in better order, maybe I can find more time to be even more fun.  I’m actually amazingly fun, so being more fun is going to be hard work.

With organization comes better control of finances.  So, like everyone else in the world, I want to make more money.

I want to do more good in the world.  I want to help people.  My job allows me to do that every day and I’m so grateful for it, but what if I could do even more?  What if I can help other people get on their paths so they can be happier people? How can I find ways to volunteer in a way that is meaningful to me and the things I believe in?  Specifically, I’d like to help other women learn how to get out of bad situations.

I want to cook more and be around the people I love.  I want to be a better friend and I want to be better about keeping in touch with the people I love who I don’t see as often.  I want to, most importantly, be a better mom and spend more time with my kids.

I want to show more gratitude.  There’s so much to be grateful for, my parents, my kids, my work, my friends, my home, the health of the people closest to me, and so much more…  I’m going to continue to learn how to be happy in the moment I’m in and love myself.

I hope I’m held accountable to these goals.  I know I can accomplish these things.

This year, I hope everyone learns how to be happy in their moment and love themselves.  I wish you happiness, health, and better lives than last year.  Thanks for all your support.